Post by Rhett Miller on Jan 25, 2017 22:56:57 GMT -5
A Ruth x Rhettx Kent x Kam RF
Ruth: -vera had come and brought her to England where Rhett was, the horror of it all weighing heavy on her mind as she came to his room, it was just him but she.cohldnt help but launch herself onto his bed and cuddle the hell out of him-
Rhett; -when Vera asked him if there was anything she could do, the only thing he could muster was for his sister, he was still groggy as fuck though because after him attempting a few more times they finally decided to sedate him some. And handcuff him. Which wasn't comfortable at all. Half awake he hadn't been expecting anyone to launch into his bed into him- Ow..OW! -he coughed, eyes opening- Ruth? I wish I could hug you back... -he jiggled the handcuffs-
Ruth: Shhh just let me snuggle you. You're alive and I just need you to know that I love you and I'm not letting you go. Okay?
Rhett: I'm alive...Not by my choice... -he leaned his head against her- You're alone right? No one knows?
Ruth: -she snuggles against hm- Well I am glad that you're alive, your choice or not your my favorite brother. And yes. Like heck I would tell mom and dad what happened and where I was going. You know how mad dad would be if he found out I was transported by magic. Buh.
Rhett: Thanks... -he let out a soft laugh as he let the silence fall. He had no idea how to say anything he wanted to say but just having his sister here made him feel a little more normal-
Ruth: You're welcome. -she sighs in the quiet for a while and holds.him close without moving his cuffed hand- I wish you would have told me sooner.
Rhett; That I was here? kiiiinda hard when I'm tied down yknow
Ruth: No. That you were walking that road. -she sighs-
Rhett; I didn't walk it. It ran up to meet me and drug me under the water.
Ruth; -she pets back his hair- Well if it happens next time. Call me and I'll figure out how to come to you
Rhett: -he closes his eyes as she pets his hair- I think the point of suicide is givin' up, not callin' your sister
Ruth: -she laughs softly- I'd say just stop it, but I know it doesn't happen that way. What drove you to it?
Rhett: -he takes a breath trying to figure out how to answer- I...I hurt. I hurt so bad and it won't stop and then it just got worse and I'm scared. -he trails off because he starts crying-
Ruth: -she moves, slipping off the bed from behind him and heads to the other side of the bed so she can see him, her fingers running over his cheeks- It's okay, it's totally okay. I'm right here and I won't let it get worse, okay?
Rhett; -he nods slightly because that's what he's supposed to do- I don't know what to do...-He looks up at his sister, the fear obvious in his eyes-
Ruth: -she pets his hair back again and leans in- What do you want to do.
Rhett: -he opens his mouth but he's still scared, even though he knows he shouldn't be with Ruth, years of training tell him he's wrong- I want to go away
Ruth: Well that isn't happening, there are people here who love you. -she nods softly to the door- Some of them refusing to actually leave, including me. So that's not an option.
Rhett: -he blinks having no idea what she's talking about it- Ruth...I... -and he still can't say it. It's hard for him- I... Don't.... I'm...
Ruth: -she pets his hair back again- Rhett. You can tell me anything.
Rhett: -he chews on his lip ring a moment, but this was Ruth. The one that always stood up for him and was always there- I... I'm gay -the words as so soft but he feels like their echoing around as he finally says it outloud-
Ruth: -she gives him a softly smile and nods- I know. And I love you.
Rhett: -he just looks at her in mild panic and surprise before he feels the tears start to come out- I'm scared...I'm scared of myself and...And... -he didn't have to finish to know she'd know he was talking about their family-
Ruth: -she shushes him softly and brushes the tears back- Listen. You don't need to be scared. And you definitely don't need to be scared of yourself. That's number one. And being gay is completely normal. Really. As for telling the parents? -she shrugged- Let me come out first?
Rhett: -he blinks through his tears- S-Seriously?
Ruth: -she nods- Seriously. I haven't told mom that I've fooled around with a few girls in the past, but hey.
Rhett: I... I've had two boyfriends. But I could still seem to fool myself into being with girls ... Until until last month and I flipped and.. I've been AWFUL
Ruth: -she blinks softly and pets his hair back- Hey, no you haven't. Sure awful things may have happened, but there is always going to be time to fix them and focus on forgiveness, Rhett. The first person you have to forgive is yourself though. And two? Was one of them the boy sitting outside your door?
Rhett,: yeah no I've been terrible... Huh? -he blinked not imagining Hayden or Kingston out there- No?
Ruth: -she looks at him- He's at least like six feet tall, maybe taller. I don't know, he was sleeping. But yes. Anyway, forgive yourself and things will start to fall into place
Rhett: .... -Kam....She was talking about Kam...It felt like a knife stab and he couldn't hide his feelings, not from his sister, the pain and obvious longing crossing his face- Make him go away
Ruth: -she looks him over and runs her fingers through his hair- I don't think I will be able to make him go, he looked pretty set where he was.
Rhett: I don't want him him here -he's whining he can't help it, it still hurts and the pain is overbearing-
Ruth: That's too bad. He clearly cares for you, so I'm not going to make him leave. And besides he is sleeping. -she looks over his face and sighs- I'll do my best to not let him in.
Rhett: He abandoned me. I tried and I tried and I tried for him and he couldn't wait, he couldn't he couldn't see any of it and he abandoned me -he's really starting to hate the handcuffs right now although he isn't sure if it's because he wants to be able to be more on his side or try something stupid as the hollowness threatens to swallow him-
Ruth: -she really listens to him and hears the panic shift in his voice quietly noticing every single change- Hey. -her voice quiet yet demanding- If that were the case, Rhett? If he truly abandoned you, he wouldn't be here.
Rhett: He just feels guilty. He doesn't care. -He pulls at his handcuffs but nope they ain't budging anymore- He left me -his voice cracks from the emotions swirling inside him-
Ruth: -she moves and takes his hand in hers to stop him from fighting against the restraint- Rhett. Rhett stop. I thought you said you only had two boyfriends and the guy out there wasn't one of them.
Rhett: I didn't lie. -he snaps at her, regretting it almost as soon as it's out of his mouth but he doesn't retract it or his tone-
Ruth: -she doesn't back down at the snap and she shakes her head- I am not going to tell him to leave. He will stay there and be here with you if he wants because I'm not going to be the one to push him away. You can do that.
Rhett: I don't want him here. I don't... -except he does because Kams all he ever wanted and licking his lips he decides to tell Ruth Everything that happened in the last month-
Ruth: -as per usual she listens and nods softly- Then it seems like you're both at fault, and once you both can start to forgive one another and yourselves it will be okay.
Rhett: He abandoned me
Ruth: But he didn't Rhett... He probably thought you were dating that Vera girl and decided to move on.
Rhett: He should've been able to see it. He's not stupid.
Ruth: Well maybe he thought you abandoned him, Rhett. You can't blame him for everything. He is here now, that has got to mean something.
Rhett: I don't wanna see him. All I can think of is him...And Leo..And it feels like I'm drownin' again
Ruth: -she sighs and combs her fingers through his hair-
Rhett: Just let me go Ruth...
Ruth: I'm not going to let that happen baby brother
Rhett: Don' make me live with this pain. Please
Ruth: -she sighs- Look, Rhett. It's not happening. Because there is someone on the other side of that door that loves you, and someone right here who loves you. You're gay. So what? I like girls too, so what? God would never forgive you if you took your life, and he would never forgive me for letting you. So it is not going to happen.
Rhett: Why the fuck are you being so selfish!? -he might be yelling just a little- If you actually loved me you'd help me and let me leave.
Ruth: -she looks to him calmly and patiently shaking her head- I'm allowed to be selfish when the only sibling I actually care about is asking to die.
Rhett: I hate you. I hate you! You're no better than Matt or Noah. Worse. You're worse. You could save me and you won't. You'd rather me be miserable so it doesn't hurt your conscience. -He Yanks at the handcuffs hard, feeling them cut into his skin and not caring- You don't love me. I hate you
Ruth: -she stands up at the outburst, fighting back tears- You don't mean that... Rhett you don't mean that!
Kam: -he wakes up instantly smelling the blood as nurses move into the room at the screaming-
Rhett: -he Yanks harder at his handcuffs, the realisation that if he pulls a certain way hard enough he can finish this..- You won't help me! You'd rather I stay like this? Then I hate you! -he looks at the nurses as they come in and pulls at his restraints harder in a panic- No...No no no. Ruth! Ruth don't let them...Don't let them do it. Ruth! Please..Please stop them. Please let me go!
Nurse: Ma'am we're gonna need you to go outside -she ushers Ruth from the room before helping the other nurses retrain and sedate him-
Ruth: -she looks to Rhett on the verge of tears as they usher her out and she just stands there a moment as they fall down over her cheeks and she reaches out for the boy sitting in the chair next to the door- You... you have to make this right. He's not listening to me....
Rhett: -quite a bit of time passes before he finally starts to come to again, acutely aware of the pains in his arms and wrists, not to mention that's he's still alive, a soft groan comes from him before he tries his restraints and notices they changed them up while he was out- God dammit....
Ruth: -she sighs having went to calm down and get a coffee before coming back into the room to sit- I'm so sorry Rhett.
Rhett: -he gives her a dark look-
Ruth: Stare at me all you want, I'm not letting you die, and if you tempt me I will send Kameron in here.
Rhett: -he glares at her a moment longer before looking away, but he's not talking to her because he's pissed at her-
Ruth: -she finishes off her coffee and stands up to throw it in the trash- Be mad all you want, you'll thank me later.
Rhett: -he doubts that and continues staring at the wall away from his traitorous sister-
Ruth: If you don't want to talk, then fine. I'm going to get Kameron.
Rhett: -now that's just rude. He doesn't want to talk to her and he doesn't want to see Kam. So he huffs softly. That's sort of like talking right?-
Ruth: -she sighs- Rhett... It's not going to get better if you keep wallowing. I know it sucks, but seriously? Man up and face your problems, resolve whatever the hell is going on in your head with someone who will run through the fires of hell for you. Like that guy in the hallway.
Rhett: -he bites back his retort and closes his eyes, willing everything to go away-
Ruth: -again she started for the door and turned the door knob- Are you going to talk to me?
Rhett: -hes not talking to anyone and he huffs again-
Ruth: Alright then. -she sighs and pulls the door open, not closing it entirely once Kent is inside- You'll have to deal with him then.
Rhett: -he doesn't even bother looking because he doesn't care and he doesn't know Kent anyways-
Kent: -he slips over to the other side of the bed and sits down in Rhett's view, quietly not saying a single word because he would talk when he wanted to, no one could force him-
Rhett: -he blinks as his vision of the wall is suddenly blocked by someone he doesn't know and he eyes him suspiciously but he's not talking so everyone can go to hell as far as he's concerned-
Kent: -still he doesn't even look to him as he cross his leg over his knee and sighed looking at the painting on the wall before him- You know... I don't know you. -he looks over finally- But what I do know is that as much as you want to take your life now, you will regret it. -it was a matter of fact sound- I don't know you, or why you want to do this to yourself, but I know it's not worth it.
Rhett: -he listens to the guy, he doesn't have an option really, blinking again as the guy looks at him and he can instantly see the resemblance between him and Kam, he stares at Kam enough to see it, he wants to tell him he can't regret somethin when he's dead but he's still not in the mood to talk, not after Ruth betrayed him-
Kent: -he blinks softly and rubs his own fingers over his hands softly- I just want you to know, that... -he looks to Rhett and gives him a very dad like smile fighting back his own emotion because he is definitely a feel all type of person- I'm not going to turn my back on you, or think any less of you because of this. You've every right to feel this way, Rhett. You've every single right in the world to feel this anguish, and self loathing. But I need you to really think about it, don't act brashly, don't act just yet. There are people in this world who truly care for you, and love you as you. Your sister being one of them. Believe me, I know you hate her right now and again, you've every right to. But she loves you and doesn't want to see you go. I barely know you, but I do know that if you were my son I would be devastated. -the last sentence was a little lower, a little more broken as he spoke it while he looked back down to his own hands taking a deep breath- And I see you as one of my boys... and I don't want to see you go. I know what it's like to be on the other side of this without knowing anything about my boy. I refuse to let that happen again.
Rhett: -Hes listening, not responding yet but he's at least listening to what Kent is saying as he looks away from him and at his handcuffed hands-
Kent: -he reaches out and takes his cuffed hand gently in his own warm grasp- You're strong Rhett. You might not feel like it now, but I truly believe that you are. And you're very talented, I just... don't want you to throw all of that away just because of a mistake that can easily be fixed once you make it through the hard part.
Rhett: -his eyes fix back on Kent and his pain is obvious, especially since Kent looks like Kam and that just hurts, but it's not the same kind of raging pain from earlier, it's a deep knife like pain -
Kent: -he gives him a quiet smile- I'm not going to lose you like I nearly lost one of them. And I'm not going to give up on you. Okay?
Rhett: -he can't help but wonder who he nearly lost but he's a stubborn fuck and doesn't to talk, so he doesn't ask, chosing instead to just shrug-
Kent: -he smiles softly and grips his cold hand a little tighter-
Rhett: -he doesn't really want this person holding his hand but he can't exactly pull away so he just deals with it as he looks away again, chewing on his lip ring-
Kent: -he lets go of his hand feeling the shift of the room and goes back to rubbing his own fingers across his own knuckles- Funny thing about it all... -he looks down- It was my fault they were here.
Rhett: -he is literally a captive audience, curious...But still a captive audience-
Kent: -he glances over to him- When... They came out to me... I abandoned them. Because of my own fears about being gay. It wasn't the fact that they were... -he breathes in- It was the fact that I couldn't come to terms with myself. -he looks to Rhett-
Rhett: -well he could relate to that. It was like with Ruth...Her sexuality didn't bother him at all. His...His clawed at him leaving searing holes of guilt and self loathing in its wake. His eyes flickered to Kent's before going back to the wall-
Kent: -he caught to movement and he offered him a soft smile- But that is what was funny about it. I took all of that anger, and... Loathing and pushed it out onto Kam.... -that slipped-
Rhett: -he blinks, the expression obviously startled and that information doesn't help the wallowing despair he feels-
Kent: Shit... -he looks to Rhett- I didn't mean to say that... He didn't want me to.
Rhett: -he doesn't know what to say or do except cry because the thought of a world without Kam is so foreign and, if he can admit it, terrifying to him-
Kent: -he reaches forward and brushes his tears back- I didn't mean to make you cry. -he whispers- But if there is one thing I know, you love him, and he loves you too, but you have to let him in. And I'm not saying this room, I'm saying into your self. Because in this life, we cannot afford to be selfish. Not at all.
Rhett: -he just looks back at him obviously distraught and crying because he wants Kam but now he feels so far in his problem he doesn't know how to ask for him-
Kent: -he pets his hair back- Do you want me to go get him?
Rhett: -he swallows hard and just looks at Kent for a moment before nodding. It's a bare thing but it's there-
Kent: Okay. Give me a second. -He smiles and grips his hand a moment before slipped by out to get his son-
Kam: -looks up at his dad, very clearly exhausted from sitting out here for... Days? He wasn't even sure how long it had been before standing quickly to tear into the room-
Rhett: -He's still hurting and it's obvious, he knows he's going to have a constant battle against himself but he knows that Vera and Ruth and Kent are right, he needs to face Kam, letting out a sigh, he fingers at the handcuffs, at least as much as he can, looking at the gauze that's covering areas on his wrist and hand+
Kam: -he closes the door behind him and moves through the room, memories filling his head, but he doesn't care as he moves to the other side of the bed, watching him fuck with the handcuffs and reaches down covering his hands-
Rhett: -he may or may not have been trying to figure out if he could squeeze his hand out and then a warm hand covers his and he stares at it a moment before looking up at Kam- .... I'm...I'm sorry...
Kam: -he shakes his head, hand gripping his fingers- no, I'm sorry.. I should have noticed.
Rhett: I was...Yea you shouldve...But I wasn' makin' it easy -his fingers grip Kams back-
Kam: No, you weren't. But I never stopped loving you. -he says softly and looks to him-
Rhett: It sure looked that way -his voice cracks slightly-
Kam: I... I was trying to forget you.. I thought you moved on... And it hurt, so much. But.... I am not going anywhere now.
Rhett: I was trying....I was trying to get the nerve to admit .... Vera was helpin me. And then you and-and Leo. And I tried to avoid it. But then those posters went up and then I saw...I was tryin' so hard Kam. And somethin in me just snapped....
Kam: -he grips his hand more and shakes his head- It's okay Rhett. It's okay you don't have to explain. I'm right here and I'm sorry that I didn't realize anything and I'm so sorry you have to go through this. But... -he leans in and kisses him to get him to shut up- I love you Rhett. Just...
Rhett: -he breathes in slightly as Kam cuts him off with a kiss, his lips warm against his as he kisses him back and he can't help the tears- I'm sorry...I'm sorry...
Kam: -he brushes the tears away and nods- I forgive you Rhett. And all I want is you.
Rhett: -he swallows as he looks up at him, head tilting into his touching slightly- And you're all I want....And I'm sorry I had a hard time...
Kam: -he brushes their noses together and kisses him again- Don't apologize about that. It's okay you're here, you're alive a d you're mine.
Rhett: -he kisses him back with a bit more meaning, not as much as he'd like though- I'll take bein yours
Kam: -he smiles against his lips softly- Good, because I don't plan on lettin' ya go, darlin'
Rhett: -he laughs, he can't help it, it comes out a little hoarse because it's the first real laugh he's had in a long time- Don' do that...You suck at it.
Kam: -he gives him a big smile before kissing him again- true, but it made you laugh.
Rhett; -when Vera asked him if there was anything she could do, the only thing he could muster was for his sister, he was still groggy as fuck though because after him attempting a few more times they finally decided to sedate him some. And handcuff him. Which wasn't comfortable at all. Half awake he hadn't been expecting anyone to launch into his bed into him- Ow..OW! -he coughed, eyes opening- Ruth? I wish I could hug you back... -he jiggled the handcuffs-
Ruth: Shhh just let me snuggle you. You're alive and I just need you to know that I love you and I'm not letting you go. Okay?
Rhett: I'm alive...Not by my choice... -he leaned his head against her- You're alone right? No one knows?
Ruth: -she snuggles against hm- Well I am glad that you're alive, your choice or not your my favorite brother. And yes. Like heck I would tell mom and dad what happened and where I was going. You know how mad dad would be if he found out I was transported by magic. Buh.
Rhett: Thanks... -he let out a soft laugh as he let the silence fall. He had no idea how to say anything he wanted to say but just having his sister here made him feel a little more normal-
Ruth: You're welcome. -she sighs in the quiet for a while and holds.him close without moving his cuffed hand- I wish you would have told me sooner.
Rhett; That I was here? kiiiinda hard when I'm tied down yknow
Ruth: No. That you were walking that road. -she sighs-
Rhett; I didn't walk it. It ran up to meet me and drug me under the water.
Ruth; -she pets back his hair- Well if it happens next time. Call me and I'll figure out how to come to you
Rhett: -he closes his eyes as she pets his hair- I think the point of suicide is givin' up, not callin' your sister
Ruth: -she laughs softly- I'd say just stop it, but I know it doesn't happen that way. What drove you to it?
Rhett: -he takes a breath trying to figure out how to answer- I...I hurt. I hurt so bad and it won't stop and then it just got worse and I'm scared. -he trails off because he starts crying-
Ruth: -she moves, slipping off the bed from behind him and heads to the other side of the bed so she can see him, her fingers running over his cheeks- It's okay, it's totally okay. I'm right here and I won't let it get worse, okay?
Rhett; -he nods slightly because that's what he's supposed to do- I don't know what to do...-He looks up at his sister, the fear obvious in his eyes-
Ruth: -she pets his hair back again and leans in- What do you want to do.
Rhett: -he opens his mouth but he's still scared, even though he knows he shouldn't be with Ruth, years of training tell him he's wrong- I want to go away
Ruth: Well that isn't happening, there are people here who love you. -she nods softly to the door- Some of them refusing to actually leave, including me. So that's not an option.
Rhett: -he blinks having no idea what she's talking about it- Ruth...I... -and he still can't say it. It's hard for him- I... Don't.... I'm...
Ruth: -she pets his hair back again- Rhett. You can tell me anything.
Rhett: -he chews on his lip ring a moment, but this was Ruth. The one that always stood up for him and was always there- I... I'm gay -the words as so soft but he feels like their echoing around as he finally says it outloud-
Ruth: -she gives him a softly smile and nods- I know. And I love you.
Rhett: -he just looks at her in mild panic and surprise before he feels the tears start to come out- I'm scared...I'm scared of myself and...And... -he didn't have to finish to know she'd know he was talking about their family-
Ruth: -she shushes him softly and brushes the tears back- Listen. You don't need to be scared. And you definitely don't need to be scared of yourself. That's number one. And being gay is completely normal. Really. As for telling the parents? -she shrugged- Let me come out first?
Rhett: -he blinks through his tears- S-Seriously?
Ruth: -she nods- Seriously. I haven't told mom that I've fooled around with a few girls in the past, but hey.
Rhett: I... I've had two boyfriends. But I could still seem to fool myself into being with girls ... Until until last month and I flipped and.. I've been AWFUL
Ruth: -she blinks softly and pets his hair back- Hey, no you haven't. Sure awful things may have happened, but there is always going to be time to fix them and focus on forgiveness, Rhett. The first person you have to forgive is yourself though. And two? Was one of them the boy sitting outside your door?
Rhett,: yeah no I've been terrible... Huh? -he blinked not imagining Hayden or Kingston out there- No?
Ruth: -she looks at him- He's at least like six feet tall, maybe taller. I don't know, he was sleeping. But yes. Anyway, forgive yourself and things will start to fall into place
Rhett: .... -Kam....She was talking about Kam...It felt like a knife stab and he couldn't hide his feelings, not from his sister, the pain and obvious longing crossing his face- Make him go away
Ruth: -she looks him over and runs her fingers through his hair- I don't think I will be able to make him go, he looked pretty set where he was.
Rhett: I don't want him him here -he's whining he can't help it, it still hurts and the pain is overbearing-
Ruth: That's too bad. He clearly cares for you, so I'm not going to make him leave. And besides he is sleeping. -she looks over his face and sighs- I'll do my best to not let him in.
Rhett: He abandoned me. I tried and I tried and I tried for him and he couldn't wait, he couldn't he couldn't see any of it and he abandoned me -he's really starting to hate the handcuffs right now although he isn't sure if it's because he wants to be able to be more on his side or try something stupid as the hollowness threatens to swallow him-
Ruth: -she really listens to him and hears the panic shift in his voice quietly noticing every single change- Hey. -her voice quiet yet demanding- If that were the case, Rhett? If he truly abandoned you, he wouldn't be here.
Rhett: He just feels guilty. He doesn't care. -He pulls at his handcuffs but nope they ain't budging anymore- He left me -his voice cracks from the emotions swirling inside him-
Ruth: -she moves and takes his hand in hers to stop him from fighting against the restraint- Rhett. Rhett stop. I thought you said you only had two boyfriends and the guy out there wasn't one of them.
Rhett: I didn't lie. -he snaps at her, regretting it almost as soon as it's out of his mouth but he doesn't retract it or his tone-
Ruth: -she doesn't back down at the snap and she shakes her head- I am not going to tell him to leave. He will stay there and be here with you if he wants because I'm not going to be the one to push him away. You can do that.
Rhett: I don't want him here. I don't... -except he does because Kams all he ever wanted and licking his lips he decides to tell Ruth Everything that happened in the last month-
Ruth: -as per usual she listens and nods softly- Then it seems like you're both at fault, and once you both can start to forgive one another and yourselves it will be okay.
Rhett: He abandoned me
Ruth: But he didn't Rhett... He probably thought you were dating that Vera girl and decided to move on.
Rhett: He should've been able to see it. He's not stupid.
Ruth: Well maybe he thought you abandoned him, Rhett. You can't blame him for everything. He is here now, that has got to mean something.
Rhett: I don't wanna see him. All I can think of is him...And Leo..And it feels like I'm drownin' again
Ruth: -she sighs and combs her fingers through his hair-
Rhett: Just let me go Ruth...
Ruth: I'm not going to let that happen baby brother
Rhett: Don' make me live with this pain. Please
Ruth: -she sighs- Look, Rhett. It's not happening. Because there is someone on the other side of that door that loves you, and someone right here who loves you. You're gay. So what? I like girls too, so what? God would never forgive you if you took your life, and he would never forgive me for letting you. So it is not going to happen.
Rhett: Why the fuck are you being so selfish!? -he might be yelling just a little- If you actually loved me you'd help me and let me leave.
Ruth: -she looks to him calmly and patiently shaking her head- I'm allowed to be selfish when the only sibling I actually care about is asking to die.
Rhett: I hate you. I hate you! You're no better than Matt or Noah. Worse. You're worse. You could save me and you won't. You'd rather me be miserable so it doesn't hurt your conscience. -He Yanks at the handcuffs hard, feeling them cut into his skin and not caring- You don't love me. I hate you
Ruth: -she stands up at the outburst, fighting back tears- You don't mean that... Rhett you don't mean that!
Kam: -he wakes up instantly smelling the blood as nurses move into the room at the screaming-
Rhett: -he Yanks harder at his handcuffs, the realisation that if he pulls a certain way hard enough he can finish this..- You won't help me! You'd rather I stay like this? Then I hate you! -he looks at the nurses as they come in and pulls at his restraints harder in a panic- No...No no no. Ruth! Ruth don't let them...Don't let them do it. Ruth! Please..Please stop them. Please let me go!
Nurse: Ma'am we're gonna need you to go outside -she ushers Ruth from the room before helping the other nurses retrain and sedate him-
Ruth: -she looks to Rhett on the verge of tears as they usher her out and she just stands there a moment as they fall down over her cheeks and she reaches out for the boy sitting in the chair next to the door- You... you have to make this right. He's not listening to me....
Rhett: -quite a bit of time passes before he finally starts to come to again, acutely aware of the pains in his arms and wrists, not to mention that's he's still alive, a soft groan comes from him before he tries his restraints and notices they changed them up while he was out- God dammit....
Ruth: -she sighs having went to calm down and get a coffee before coming back into the room to sit- I'm so sorry Rhett.
Rhett: -he gives her a dark look-
Ruth: Stare at me all you want, I'm not letting you die, and if you tempt me I will send Kameron in here.
Rhett: -he glares at her a moment longer before looking away, but he's not talking to her because he's pissed at her-
Ruth: -she finishes off her coffee and stands up to throw it in the trash- Be mad all you want, you'll thank me later.
Rhett: -he doubts that and continues staring at the wall away from his traitorous sister-
Ruth: If you don't want to talk, then fine. I'm going to get Kameron.
Rhett: -now that's just rude. He doesn't want to talk to her and he doesn't want to see Kam. So he huffs softly. That's sort of like talking right?-
Ruth: -she sighs- Rhett... It's not going to get better if you keep wallowing. I know it sucks, but seriously? Man up and face your problems, resolve whatever the hell is going on in your head with someone who will run through the fires of hell for you. Like that guy in the hallway.
Rhett: -he bites back his retort and closes his eyes, willing everything to go away-
Ruth: -again she started for the door and turned the door knob- Are you going to talk to me?
Rhett: -hes not talking to anyone and he huffs again-
Ruth: Alright then. -she sighs and pulls the door open, not closing it entirely once Kent is inside- You'll have to deal with him then.
Rhett: -he doesn't even bother looking because he doesn't care and he doesn't know Kent anyways-
Kent: -he slips over to the other side of the bed and sits down in Rhett's view, quietly not saying a single word because he would talk when he wanted to, no one could force him-
Rhett: -he blinks as his vision of the wall is suddenly blocked by someone he doesn't know and he eyes him suspiciously but he's not talking so everyone can go to hell as far as he's concerned-
Kent: -still he doesn't even look to him as he cross his leg over his knee and sighed looking at the painting on the wall before him- You know... I don't know you. -he looks over finally- But what I do know is that as much as you want to take your life now, you will regret it. -it was a matter of fact sound- I don't know you, or why you want to do this to yourself, but I know it's not worth it.
Rhett: -he listens to the guy, he doesn't have an option really, blinking again as the guy looks at him and he can instantly see the resemblance between him and Kam, he stares at Kam enough to see it, he wants to tell him he can't regret somethin when he's dead but he's still not in the mood to talk, not after Ruth betrayed him-
Kent: -he blinks softly and rubs his own fingers over his hands softly- I just want you to know, that... -he looks to Rhett and gives him a very dad like smile fighting back his own emotion because he is definitely a feel all type of person- I'm not going to turn my back on you, or think any less of you because of this. You've every right to feel this way, Rhett. You've every single right in the world to feel this anguish, and self loathing. But I need you to really think about it, don't act brashly, don't act just yet. There are people in this world who truly care for you, and love you as you. Your sister being one of them. Believe me, I know you hate her right now and again, you've every right to. But she loves you and doesn't want to see you go. I barely know you, but I do know that if you were my son I would be devastated. -the last sentence was a little lower, a little more broken as he spoke it while he looked back down to his own hands taking a deep breath- And I see you as one of my boys... and I don't want to see you go. I know what it's like to be on the other side of this without knowing anything about my boy. I refuse to let that happen again.
Rhett: -Hes listening, not responding yet but he's at least listening to what Kent is saying as he looks away from him and at his handcuffed hands-
Kent: -he reaches out and takes his cuffed hand gently in his own warm grasp- You're strong Rhett. You might not feel like it now, but I truly believe that you are. And you're very talented, I just... don't want you to throw all of that away just because of a mistake that can easily be fixed once you make it through the hard part.
Rhett: -his eyes fix back on Kent and his pain is obvious, especially since Kent looks like Kam and that just hurts, but it's not the same kind of raging pain from earlier, it's a deep knife like pain -
Kent: -he gives him a quiet smile- I'm not going to lose you like I nearly lost one of them. And I'm not going to give up on you. Okay?
Rhett: -he can't help but wonder who he nearly lost but he's a stubborn fuck and doesn't to talk, so he doesn't ask, chosing instead to just shrug-
Kent: -he smiles softly and grips his cold hand a little tighter-
Rhett: -he doesn't really want this person holding his hand but he can't exactly pull away so he just deals with it as he looks away again, chewing on his lip ring-
Kent: -he lets go of his hand feeling the shift of the room and goes back to rubbing his own fingers across his own knuckles- Funny thing about it all... -he looks down- It was my fault they were here.
Rhett: -he is literally a captive audience, curious...But still a captive audience-
Kent: -he glances over to him- When... They came out to me... I abandoned them. Because of my own fears about being gay. It wasn't the fact that they were... -he breathes in- It was the fact that I couldn't come to terms with myself. -he looks to Rhett-
Rhett: -well he could relate to that. It was like with Ruth...Her sexuality didn't bother him at all. His...His clawed at him leaving searing holes of guilt and self loathing in its wake. His eyes flickered to Kent's before going back to the wall-
Kent: -he caught to movement and he offered him a soft smile- But that is what was funny about it. I took all of that anger, and... Loathing and pushed it out onto Kam.... -that slipped-
Rhett: -he blinks, the expression obviously startled and that information doesn't help the wallowing despair he feels-
Kent: Shit... -he looks to Rhett- I didn't mean to say that... He didn't want me to.
Rhett: -he doesn't know what to say or do except cry because the thought of a world without Kam is so foreign and, if he can admit it, terrifying to him-
Kent: -he reaches forward and brushes his tears back- I didn't mean to make you cry. -he whispers- But if there is one thing I know, you love him, and he loves you too, but you have to let him in. And I'm not saying this room, I'm saying into your self. Because in this life, we cannot afford to be selfish. Not at all.
Rhett: -he just looks back at him obviously distraught and crying because he wants Kam but now he feels so far in his problem he doesn't know how to ask for him-
Kent: -he pets his hair back- Do you want me to go get him?
Rhett: -he swallows hard and just looks at Kent for a moment before nodding. It's a bare thing but it's there-
Kent: Okay. Give me a second. -He smiles and grips his hand a moment before slipped by out to get his son-
Kam: -looks up at his dad, very clearly exhausted from sitting out here for... Days? He wasn't even sure how long it had been before standing quickly to tear into the room-
Rhett: -He's still hurting and it's obvious, he knows he's going to have a constant battle against himself but he knows that Vera and Ruth and Kent are right, he needs to face Kam, letting out a sigh, he fingers at the handcuffs, at least as much as he can, looking at the gauze that's covering areas on his wrist and hand+
Kam: -he closes the door behind him and moves through the room, memories filling his head, but he doesn't care as he moves to the other side of the bed, watching him fuck with the handcuffs and reaches down covering his hands-
Rhett: -he may or may not have been trying to figure out if he could squeeze his hand out and then a warm hand covers his and he stares at it a moment before looking up at Kam- .... I'm...I'm sorry...
Kam: -he shakes his head, hand gripping his fingers- no, I'm sorry.. I should have noticed.
Rhett: I was...Yea you shouldve...But I wasn' makin' it easy -his fingers grip Kams back-
Kam: No, you weren't. But I never stopped loving you. -he says softly and looks to him-
Rhett: It sure looked that way -his voice cracks slightly-
Kam: I... I was trying to forget you.. I thought you moved on... And it hurt, so much. But.... I am not going anywhere now.
Rhett: I was trying....I was trying to get the nerve to admit .... Vera was helpin me. And then you and-and Leo. And I tried to avoid it. But then those posters went up and then I saw...I was tryin' so hard Kam. And somethin in me just snapped....
Kam: -he grips his hand more and shakes his head- It's okay Rhett. It's okay you don't have to explain. I'm right here and I'm sorry that I didn't realize anything and I'm so sorry you have to go through this. But... -he leans in and kisses him to get him to shut up- I love you Rhett. Just...
Rhett: -he breathes in slightly as Kam cuts him off with a kiss, his lips warm against his as he kisses him back and he can't help the tears- I'm sorry...I'm sorry...
Kam: -he brushes the tears away and nods- I forgive you Rhett. And all I want is you.
Rhett: -he swallows as he looks up at him, head tilting into his touching slightly- And you're all I want....And I'm sorry I had a hard time...
Kam: -he brushes their noses together and kisses him again- Don't apologize about that. It's okay you're here, you're alive a d you're mine.
Rhett: -he kisses him back with a bit more meaning, not as much as he'd like though- I'll take bein yours
Kam: -he smiles against his lips softly- Good, because I don't plan on lettin' ya go, darlin'
Rhett: -he laughs, he can't help it, it comes out a little hoarse because it's the first real laugh he's had in a long time- Don' do that...You suck at it.
Kam: -he gives him a big smile before kissing him again- true, but it made you laugh.